"I wrote a poem about it, and then threw it away, because that’s the last thing I need right now: More words dedicated to people who will never dedicate a single thing to me."
- Thought Catalog (via koizoraa)
(via laur-a)
Do you ever get in those moods when everything annoys you and you’re just so irritated and nervous but you have no clue why, and you just want to punch a hole in the wall and then break down in tears?
it’s called awake
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(via my-insanities)
I am the reason for my pain. No one else is responsible. I’ve come to realize that. I’ve also realized that I can stop this pain inside. I can beat the bad part of me. I can be happy Its going to be awhile before I win this war. Many battles have still yet to come, but tonight I have the battle because tonight… I put down the knife.
See what your followers think of you.
Black Heart
It hurts knowing that
I’m all alone
That there won’t be anyone
To call my own.
People see me
Smiling everyday
But what they don’t see
Is that I’m in pain.
They don’t ever see
What lies beneath
The don’t see
The scars underneath.
Or they do see
And juat don’t care
To leave me alone
With these problems to bear.
Its a curse
And cruel one at that
To live my life
With a heart so black
Lost Soul
What I cant say in words
Is what really needs to be said
I cant help this feeling
That im living but im dead.
Im so tired of being alone
My house is so empty
I wish there was someway
For someone to love me.
But I know this wish
Is just another lost cause
So I’ll stand here singing
This sad and lonely song
This life was meant for two
Not for one to endure
Everyone needs someone else
For them to adore.
To never be apart
Even when miles away
They could be star crossed lovers
But bound by eachother to stay.
I want to have a lover
Someone so true
To hold me when im broken
And to love me all the way through.
I know it will never happen
Because no one really cares
About somone so broken
Who will live without being a pair.
So every night
I lay down to sleep
I hold onto my pillow
And begin to wheep.
The pain wont ever leave
And I already know
That I cannot be saved
For I am another lost soul.
River of Red
Ive never been the one to talk
About anything that was wrong
But I am finally caving in
Because now I’m not that strong
I want to say everything is fine
That im happy being alive
But the truth is
I’ve lost all of my drive
Its just been only me
For all of my life
No that isnt true
Theres always been a knife
So cold like me
Heated it sears
The flesh on my arm
The blood runs clear
Its quite satisfying
After I’m done
Then sow it up
Until I’m numb
Everyone looks at me
But no one sees
That i’m a crying boy
Begging on his knees
Im silently yelling
Through my eyes
Hoping I’ll be heard
See through my lies
I cannot wait
Until I’m dead
To watch my blood
Run a river of red
Lost Love
Its gonna take awhile
For me to get back to me
A relationship like that
Doesnt end so easily.
The time we spent together
Can never be replaced
My heart is broken
The pieces misplaced.
I’ll never forget
The way you make me feel
And I don’t think that
I can ever fully heal.
You were the shinning star
That was made for me
Your eyes so blue
As deep as the sea.
Youre the reason
The grass stays green
You had a smile
The prettiest I’ve ever seen.
I’m going to miss
The long nights we shared
You were the only one
Who really cared.
Now youre gone
And I’m left alone
I have no place here now
I have no home.
My wishes that I wish
Will never come true
Because all I wish for
Is to be back with you.
I’m sorry I wasn’t enough
Sorry I wasn’t strong
But I can’t help to think
That I’m the one who’s wrong.
I blame only myself
And no one else
Because I’m the one
Who ended us.
I tried to drink it away
But it always came back
So I beat myself up
I give no slack.
Its not easy being alone
With the memory so fresh
In my mind and also in
Every inch of my flesh.
It won’t go away
No matter what I do
I can’t replace my love
I can’t replace you.
I wish there was some way
To make you mine again
But I know there isn’t
Your heart I’ll never win.
Blank page
This page will stay blank
Unless I start to write
A battle will rage
My mind will start to fight
It will turn against me
And make me want to bleed
Images of me dying
Like a vision forseen
As I start to cut
And let it all out
Its still not enough
Now I have doubt
It’ll never be enough
Unless I am dead
But half of me says
The prophecy you misread
Its not me who dies now
Its everyone else
This must stop
I must kill myself
